To-Do List: October 2008

01-10-2008 She will feed sparrows but not pigeons
01-10-2008 She realises she doesn't look as long as she thinks she does
02-10-2008 Knows you're not the kind of guy she can take home to her parents
02-10-2008 She is used to having people respond to her messages and sort of finds it annoying that you hardly ever do
02-10-2008 Seeing you is a constant reminder of the choice i had to make and i don't know if it's healthy or not.
02-10-2008 Care for a coffee?
02-10-2008 I could be your own personal stalker if you wanted me to be
03-10-2008 See? I told you she wasn't perfect.
03-10-2008 Going, going, gone to cheat on you
03-10-2008 Walking funny on a friday
03-10-2008 I'd fag for you if you weren't so gay
03-10-2008 I hate you. i want you. i hate that i want you
04-10-2008 Whistling and humming are dead giveaways that you're thinking about sex
04-10-2008 I'm glad you enjoy fucking my boyfriend. Now please, leave me alone.
04-10-2008 Reading journals of my sixteen year old self i realise i haven't come very far at all
04-10-2008 I get too involved too quickly and i don't know how to stop
04-10-2008 I found this today. I wrote it in 2006. 'bounce me on your knee papa, like when i was young!'
04-10-2008 So here's something from 2005; i'm so lazy i'm pessimistic because it's easier than being optimistic
04-10-2008 Remember when i fucking hated you? Yeah, well, nothing's changed.
04-10-2008 I love it when guys from dancing who don't know me think i'm single and flirt no end with me. It makes me giggle.
04-10-2008 She said 'i would go for a run with you but it's ten pm at night'
04-10-2008 Twists your hair around her thumb. She cut it off because she loves you. Sampson and Delilah.
04-10-2008 The music has stopped but i'm still dancing. Are you?
04-10-2008 Remember?! I'll never forget!
04-10-2008 I'll be seeing you soon on the other side
04-10-2008  I keep forgetting who i've told my secrets to and so i tell them again and again
04-10-2008 Finding profound things i wrote as a child. Here's another one (paraphrased) 'today i was  giving out hugs like popcorn at a cinema'
05-10-2008 Not able to attend your funeral because i'm already dead
06-1-2008 She needs glasses but she doesn't want to admit it
06-10-2008 She needs you but you don't want to know
06-10-2008 You're more than mere fantasies of a school girl long forgotten
06-10-2008 Lying to herself so she doesn't lie to you
06-10-2008 Being a young girl means i can blame everything on my period and get away with it. Most of the time.
06-10-2008 Thank god i'm going back to levlen
07-10-2008 Cheese, biscuits and chocolate spiders
07-10-2008 Warning: erratic behaviour due to diane - 35
07-10-2008 The smell of a good book still gets me excited
08-10-2008 Bleeding in two places
08-10-2008 Scanning the train for your face i see you looking back at me
10-10-2008 I've got a hundred dollars and a measuring tape.
11-10-2008 I have a thing for older guys (so lock up your grandpas' and ban me from nursing homes)
11-10-2008 Conversations had through a backyard fence
12-10-2008 7am on a sunday afternoon in iowa
12-10-2008 Early morning walk to work when everyone else is sleeping
13-10-2008 Living on lcm's, berry v and the promise that the end is near
13-10-2008 Letters written to you in my head never get sent.
14-10-2008 Songs of today running through my head at night
15-10-2008 Go and stand behind a smoker to get your fix.
15-10-2008 Ready for her slow burn
15-10-1008 Living on a lack of sleep and lack of food gives you energy after a while
15-10-2008 Why'd she ever give you up? Oh, that's right. You gave up on her
15-10-2008 Knows you wouldn't have liked her today
16-10-2008 And i skim along the surface, only getting involved in the things i never should
16-10-2008 I still think of you when i'm in the shower
16-10-2008 Because of you i never say 'book', i only say 'novel'
16-10-2008 Dry skin on my neck feels like scales
16-10-2008 Her hair falls where it wants to and she leaves it that way
16-10-2008 Flies in trains
16-10-2008 I eat hubba bubba to get back in touch with a childhood I've almost forgot
16-10-2008 Why have a bath?
16-10-2008 There's no point in trying to make you understand. You never cared enough to listen.
16-10-2008 Sometimes it's nice to read 'message sending failed'. Sometimes i take it as a sign from God that it shouldn't have been sent. Other times, i just send it again
17-10-2008 Can't get over how glad she is to be with you
17-10-2008 You're in a corner of a photo that i don't want you to be in
17-10-2008 Sure i write about you. Doesn't mean i still care about you or anything. Liar.
17-10-2008 The girl that could always put on bracelets alone now needs help with the on you gave her.
17-10-2008 She has a clean bedroom and a clean conscience but she bets you don't, do you?
17-10-2008 Getting out of sticky situations with duct tape and a damsal in distress
17-10-2008 God my mind is weird sometimes but that's what makes it so damned wonderful to live in
17-10-2008 You're never going to talk to me about it are you?
17-10-2008 And she clicks send.
17-10-2008 To have you come undone would be perfect right now.
17-10-2008 Slow burns.
17-10-2008 I've started numbering the poems i write by time and date and not just time
17-10-2008 Passing out instead of sleeping.
17-10-2008 This night is turning out to be quite a voluptuous night.
17-10-2008 Phonetic spelling has always worked for me
17-10-2008 Sleep. Goodnight my pretties
17-10-2008 They've taken the d40 off the shelves. There goes my dream toy
17-10-2008 She drinks tea without sugar nowadays. You said she's sweet enough without it. What a fool she is.
17-10-2008 Dirty hands from lifting boxes
18-10-2008 Facebook feeding frenzy
18-10-2008 She's at the ball, waiting for her prince charming to never turn up
18-10-2008 Dogs on prozac
18-10-2008 Sneezed so hard i split my lip
18-10-2008 Days of youth gone by never to be seen before
19-10-2008 Anyone who doesn't know her would think she has a coke habit
19-10-2008 I can't relax my back because of you
20-10-2008 Messages for a dead woman
20-10-2008 All the boys I've been with have had amazing eyes
20-10-2008 Come find me when i feel like leading a destructive lifestyle
20-10-2008 Come home and have sex during the day
20-10-2008 Flirting from afar
20-10-2008 Dating a sociopath for kicks
20-10-2008 Two sinks and a mirror that's never used
21-10-2008 With the smell of leather i think of you
21-10-2008 My emails to you are sporadic but relevant
21-10-2008 Bible sitting next to her bed; never opened, never read
21-10-2008 You're in my dreams. Please, get the fuck out.
21-10-2008 Causing trouble for herself not others.
21-10-2008 Bottles in bags and boxes in wardrobes
21-10-2008 Some of my truest thoughts are in these pages and on this phones memory
21-10-2008 I wanna hear you blow your horn
21-10-1008 I want to be wrapped up in the words of this song
21-10-1008 Like fire she falls from the flames
22-10-2008 I hate you so much that it's not fair
22-10-2008 You're going to be part of my life whether we like it or not
22-10-2008 I'm happy only when i'm not around you.
22-10-2008 Bruises and bite marks, although related, are from different incidents.
22-10-2008 Landing heavily on her knees
23-10-2008 She resorted to rocks to fix her failing marriage
23-10-2008 'I've had it on repeat for five days now' she said. 'just so i won't forget the time we had together'
23-10-2008 Woke up; had a blood nose; went back to sleep.
23-10-2008 Just another pretty face on your list of girls to fuck
23-10-2008 All that she could put it down to was bad timing.
23-10-2008 She's slowly dying. just like everybody else
23-10-2008 There's a lot i can learn from you. Too bad i can't learn it first hand
23-10-2008 Look back: find me in the crowd and see that i'm watching for you
23-10-2008 I remember your smell and it hurts.
23-10-2008 If you ever read it please understand that it hurt me to write it as much as it will hurt you to read it.
23-10-2008 I never want you to feel me clinging to you again!
23-10-2008 Get the fuck out of my head already! Please, i'm begging you!
24-10-2008 Talk is just words and these words won't help anything
24-10-2008 I probably don't live in the best neighbourhood but my street is a good street and that's all that matters, right?
24-10-2008 Two dollars off the price of hard drugs if you give me what i'm looking for
25-10-2008 She's glad her bruises heal quickly. she just wishes the pains in her legs would go quickly too; people are starting to notice she can't walk properly...
25-10-2008 She has a toy but doesn't use it. She's got you instead
25-10-2008 I must stop writing these at midnight. It's not wonder i'm so tired at work the next day.
25-10-2008 I'm so hungry but i'm not going to eat. Not till morning anyway...
25-10-2008 Soft bed and warm sheets; wish you were here to share them with me.
25-10-2008 To bed! To morrow! To work! To love! To live!!!
25-10-2008 Death is overrated. I know, I've been there.
25-10-2008 I pray for message sending failed
25-10-2008 She stands behind the counter with her socks on but her shoes off
25-10-2008 All you need are thumb tacks and a paint roller
25-10-2008 Fatality brought on by dancing
26-10-2008 She likes her pink dolphin a lot.
26-10-2008 Satisfying sex puts me to sleep
26-10-2008 Middle toes bandaged due to bleeding
26-10-2008 Wearing sneakers to work to save her feet
26-10-2008 She'll mate for life on five separate occasions
26-10-2008 She'll have you until someone more interesting comes along
26-10-2008 Tear drops and cracked phone screens
26-10-2008 I type like i'm drunk when i'm the most sober person ever
26-10-2008 There are moths in my washing basket
26-10-2008 Rubbish bin full of candy and cocaine. Kicking the habit; it's easier than you think.
26-10-2008 She's thinking of piercings and merry-go-rounds
27-10-2008 It's only adultery if you don't get permission
27-10-2008 I'm about as clucky as a hen at christmas time
27-10-2008 Unicorn, unicorn, unicorn, fire fly
27-10-2008 Business men play dota
28-10-2008 This smile means i'm lying to you.
28-10-2008 Naked over train tracks
28-10-2008 Sharing cigarettes in alley ways
28-10-2008 Lovehearts for children
28-10-2008 Sex stories told in hallways
28-10-2008 For the month of november take two pieces daily.
29-10-2008 I can taste the excitement on you lips and it thrills me so that it makes my heart race.
29-10-2008 The pain of you thrills me so i never want you to let go
29-10-2008 The skin underneath where my ring lays is lined with dehydration from inexposure.
30-10-2008 When you wish for something terrible to happen to you nothing does.
30-10-2008 4am phone call still on my mind.
30-10-2008 God i love my city.
30-10-2008 Photos of america you never saw
30-10-2008 My father is an amazing business man.
31-10-2008 I remember breaking up with you near the portables next to the oval.
31-10-2008 If you would like to see more of me all you have to do is look harder
31-10-2008 I like hearing my dog bark. it makes me think he's not as old as he really is